assessment 2010

i just do not know ...
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for awhile, i thought i knew ...
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previous posts have dealt with "what if's"
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i am having a lot of what if's lately
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mostly, what if i am wrong? about everything?
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what if the game just keeps going on and on?
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what if, in the future, humans look back and
chuckle about how people could have believed
"the end was near" SO MANY times throughout history?
but the world just kept spinning, the sun continued
to rise in the east, catastrophe was hit-and-miss
as usual ...
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what if i have simply exchanged one false paradigm
for another?
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what if where i find myself is exactly where i have been led
by following the crumbs which were scattered for me?
and who or what has done the scattering?
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am i truly a human carrying the power of consciousness?
or am i an insignificant speck of sand on the universal beach?
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is the path of non-compliance a cop out? is it just an excuse
to be lazy, to take the easy way out? who am i to think
that i could be/should be an example to any other self?
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what is going on? am i awake, am i sleeping, am i dreaming?
which reality is real? does it matter?
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Don't you think the amnesia makes the game an interesting one?

If there are still a lot of what ifs for me personally I always try to fall back on intuition. Always that first answer in your gut, the knowingness otherwise it's like an itch that needs scratching all the time.

We are multidimensional beings, OBE's is the smoking gun for me. Our focus and awareness is predominately the physical reality making up around 16 hours of the day. In saying that I do think back and feel my waking hours are the ones that feel like a dream.

2010 has made me realize how important meditation is to experience consciousness, the endless mind chatter gets enough attention.

I've said this before - IMO there is no universal truth, for every truth there is an equal and opposite truth viewed from a different perspective and ultimate truth lies within and above all opposites and all contradictions.

I'm beginnin to find some validity in Ken Klein's theory that we are the Ophanim who accepted the judgement to be demoted into human flesh and confined to this planet. It's starting to make a lot of sense to me.

ok I had to do a little search on Ken Klein as the name didn't sound familiar.

L2 are you making the most out of the C2C subscriptions?...lol

Yes I am because I'm cancelling it next week. I've reviewed 8 years of interviews and picked the ones that interested me. Seriously some I dismissed as authors trying to sell books but others had viewpoints that interested me. I actually listened to this interview earlier this year and contemplated what he said I recently listened to it again and it seemed to connect some dots. I think in one month I've been directed to areas I never would have been interested in and found much material to check out for my own answers. I don't think I'll ever have the answers I want but I feel I'm heading in the right direction.

Great, I only just found the above interview so I'll have a listen now...cheers

In this process of consciousness we call life I often think of all the many ways we have been taught, brainwashed, manipulated by one group or the other group, Taught as children growing up by parents, schools, the Illuminati information network that is world wide.

It is no wonder that hippy has the questions she asked. They are good questions and most relevant to all of us.

Does it really matter what we think or believe?

I have to say that personally it does matter, at least as I perceive the reality of the life I have lived.

I have learned to hate. I have learned fear. I have learned to fight. I have learned peace. I have learned happy and sad, good and bad, color to color, song to song, right and wrong in cycles of time.

I have learned to love.

The question of does it matter what we learn?

It seems that there is a lot of energy being spent and invested in creating the reality we call the 3D? Why is this 3D so important that so much energy be spent by all of us trying to figure out this illusion of reality?

Is it Illusion? Or is it a construct of consciousness we have made? If it is a construct of our consciousness, does that make it any better or worse? Does that make it good or bad?

I too Hippy can't answer the questions, but only have more questions?

I do think however that love is a real thing and the most powerful thing, so that alone gives me hope that it does matter what we think and believe, and that if Love is real, or a universal law or rule, then there may be hope for us yet?

I have to think that all the effort and energy being spent is for some good reason?

What a wonderful thread you have sewn. Just what we need another can of worms opened....LOL.....

We need to constantly question, only then will we learn our own truths. I don't spend much time playing the 3D game. I used to but I went back to listening to my heart which told me this illusion is not where we should put our energy.

The heart and not the brain is the center of consciousness and will be the instrument to transcend the matrix. The brain is capable of either helping to catapult that transcendence or be blocked by all the distractions put in our path.

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have become
comfortably NUMB
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Hello,
Is there anybody in there
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone at home
Come on now
I hear you're feeling down
I can ease your pain
And get you on your feet again
Relax
I'll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts

There is no pain, you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I've got that feeling once again
I can't explain, you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb

Okay
Just a little pin prick
There'll be no more aaaaaaaah!
But you may feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do belive it's working, good
That'll keep you going through the show
Come on it's time to go.

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb

with david bowie

All in all, its just another brick in the wall.

I find that when these doubts come, and they do, they come in waves, the best is to "be here now". That way they pass and with each passing wave, a little more has been discerned - you get a little voice saying - see I told you...

Love Pink Floyd.

Sidenote..I see no illuminati symbolism in their performances. Awesome.




I have really been thinking about this thread Hippie, and have been struggling to respond. To be human is to have questions. We certainly don't always get the answers, and usually not the answers we expect.

Life is merely an illusion, albeit a persistant one. Albert Einstein


We bump our head, we say "Fuxk that hurt", not "that didn't hurt because it was not real!"

We lose our house and have to live in a tent ..... seems real!

Police pull us over for speeding ..... bastards ...... still real!




To me the question is ....Are these the End Times? Is 2012 the real thing or another y2k hoax?

What is going to happen? By sitting back and allowing things to happen is this an illuminati trick for people to be complacent so they can further introduce a world wide police state and world government? World religion coming with Glenn Beck the main spokesman?

Why are there so few that look at the world the way we do on this and a few other forums? Are we the crazy ones, or has the aspartame and flouride not worked on us?


Questions questions questions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Here is the thing. There is no going back everyone. The "truth" we were taught does not fit. Round hole square peg now. Too many irregularities in their story. Santa doesn't come anymore, found that one out first.



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We should list the things that there is proof positive, that we are being lied to about. There may not be enough room on this thread.

Sure there is some questionable information being thrown at us, but man there is some gems out there.

To be rebellious to the government is a step of knowledge toward wisdom.

these two kinda settled me down
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thanks to max igan and freeman, in a brand new interview