I just had one of those experiences not unlike where you look at your photos and remember your past. But the internet version where I found one of my old usernames and read some of my old posts from 2006 in a different forum. It's a very interesting experience.
And I have to say, it's not me. I changed big time. I can't believe I changed so much in a few years. I must be one of those people that changes so much in so little time that it's ridiculous. I'm surprised how amusing I was still. But man, If you think I'm argumentative and cliche now. Wow you should take a look at some of these posts from the beginning of 2006. That's only 3 years ago now. I was 10 times worse and about 10 times less aware of what I was doing. It doesn't feel like 3 years at all! It feels more like 10 years ago.
Sure I was aware of things still......I was definitely on that authentic track of seeking truth as I am now. But all I wanted to do mainly was argue with folk that didn't even count for anything. I seemed to love arguing with nobodies who were irrelevant and highly ignorant in comparison to me. If I was to post to this person this is what I would say to them today:
Me speaking to my past self from 2006
"Take a step back for a minute take a deep breath lets think about this for a moment. I can understand your frustration people are just so not on your level right now. You want to live in an authentic way but so many people have given up on that genuineness. Your intentions are noble but there is a way you can progress faster than this! I know it's unkown to me also why they don't want to face things the way you naturally want to face it all. They do not want to be where you are. They hate what is going to heal the planet and kool beliefs about truth and stuff. I don't know why exactly either but it's something to do with severe mind control of some kind they are in. They will never support this. I'm so sorry. I know it can be interesting to see how they react. You can learn from it. But you would probably enjoy reading other peoples material who agree with you. There is lots of people out there. Michael Tsarion. David Icke. Alex jones. You should check them out and become involved with these kind of people who more resonate on your level. Don't get me wrong it isn't unintelligent but very rambling argumentative all over the place sort of. No offense but come on we both know this is letting yourself go a bit. I know it's funny to you, but to them they cannot laugh with you anyway man. So time to move on to more productive things. You can do way better I promise. There needs to be a specific purpose other than random expression of anger. I know where you're coming from but just because they are very irritating to you, still value the importance of civil conduct because there is a reason for it. I know you think it's fun but in the end you will feel stupid later trust me. It's very important to think carefully what you say. And also concentrate more on compassion and understanding people. I know I sound like a winging asshole now myself. But really the most important thing is what has good feelings to it. Which is loving people. There needs to be a balance between that. And your logic reasoning. Not just logic reasoning to try express what is oppressed truth in the world. There is secret cults that are going to cut you down on purpose on the forum your posting right now even though it is 2006. They aren't ordinary people like you and your friends. It's connected with the intelligence agency you have to understand they are ready for people like you who come along on these forums. People are starting to wake up and so they are ready. They already slaughtered you ganged up on you cause of certain weaknesses look how your posting man. It's not that they don't understand at all but they have specific mind control agendas. It's all so elaborate just keep going down that rabbit hole you will see. If you manage to integrate other peoples point of view in a more harmonious way. I assure you even if you don't agree you will definitely be able to make them feel good about themself rather then just sort of not caring much about them cause of the blindness. Turn that blindness around. See what is sacred in them. There is so much more I could say to you and I haven't said it all here properly. Because I'm still learning myself. But I did try my best to convey the importance of what I'm trying to express. Now later you are probably going to have a few drinks and I don't know if they have killed a few brain cells. But I can definitely tell you this much. You're going to discover a lot of exciting things in the future. Because of you're deep need to know things. In that way you are blessed".
PS
You almost never saw this post. (which could have been a good thing) My net connection was cut and I pressed send and it didn't work. I couldn't get the text back. I thought 'I'm definitely not typing that out again'. But then I pressed the forward button after connecting and a re-send notice came up on the screen. To my pleasant suprise all my text came back! And now you see this message.
Sat Feb 07, 2009 3:16 am
