ever just want to get away...

Hey ladies and gents...
Just like the sun county commerical, "you ever want to get away?"

It is the melting pot of my current life. It feels like a lie. I wake up, take care of kiddo, bolt to daycare, bolt onto the concrete parking lot(interstate hwy), then to a job, making just enough to pay for taxes(that I don't want), the mortgage(that's a fraud), and gas(that's controled).

But knowing how the world really works(current fiat system, opec, irs bs) and having a loving wife and kiddo that really has no clue onto that knowledge base that I have. It is impossiable to (for lack of a better term) "force" my wife to see that we could actually stop paying the morgage and "join the fight" onto the banking system.

So i , day to day, fight the fear of loosing my wife/kiddo due to a radical change that I want to make. Almost falling off the face of the earth, getting away, and disconnecting completly. I have tried to "lay it out there" in regards to what the banks are really doing.....zoom over the head. To radical and your to small to change that world wide I was told.

So here I type a long winded personal message into the void, not expecting a responce, but hoping for long term like minded people to reflect onto goals of people like me. People that want to be "free" but are currently trapped until the knights and truth are seen and the ones in the shadows can show the world the knowledge base we hold within our hearts.
Regards
T

awww, tschlangen .... i think everyone has felt this
at one time or another ... when i decided to quit my
job and leave the place where i had REALLY tried to
make it work for the previous 30+ adult years of my life ...
you wouldn't believe how many friends & family said
"you can't do that, you can't just drop out and leave" ...
my ex actually told me that i would be living under an
overpass, trying to trade my chow dog for a hamburger ....
he thought i totally freaked out, talking about the chemtrails
and predicting gold might be a sound investment for him
(he fancies himself a smalltime market "player") ...
i just consider lucky timing for me that my son was grown,
i don't know if i would have been as "brave" if i had a child
still living with me .... my best advice? approach your dilemma
from a heart place, intending to make the best choices for
everyone involved (including YOU) ... i feel for ya, i really do,
hang in there

T
i hope typing it out made you feel better

yes the world is full of crap and always will be....it's you who has to find a way to not just survive but
to find joy in being here...

i don't have any answers for you...but maybe a hug will help
and i hope you get a tiny smile about this..one of my my s-i-l's is one tough cookie and her favorite phrase was always
'life is tough and they you croak"...and we would laugh

you are the only one who can calm yourself...and take a breathe while pacing on the treadmill of being here now

look at all the scenarios and pick them apart..
i say it alot here..being the pollyanna type...
find some joy...every day...to help you bear what seems un-bearable right now
come talk to us....we don't have the answers to your life...
but maybe we can be a place to bounce some things around

i extend a hand of friendship to you

Hey T, Don't feel too downhearted, we've all been in the same boat as yourself, me included. I know the pressure of being the only breadwinner of the home and all that that entails.

But instead of feeling all negative about the daily grind, look at all the positive things you've got. As WineHippie said, some folks sleep under viaducts and cardboard boxes, you have a home. Some people would give their back teeth for a child (and lots go the IVF route to make this happen) you have a child. Many people don't even have a job. YOU have all these things!

Find something positive in your life on a daily basis and things won't look so bad. Just looking at life from a different angle is all it takes to turn everything around.

Chin up bud.

I have my own business also, so I know where you are coming from. Bills Bills Bills and many people relying on a paycheck from me. By the time fuel, electric, taxes, interest is paid there is not much left.

When feeling down I always like to play this vid.....

sorry for repeating folks!

I too have been there as most of us has.

You do have a lot to be thankful for as it seems you have a good family, as others have said find the positive things to dwell on.

I would recommend meditation if you have the time. You can travel anywhere from inside yourself.

also, one time I was led to just praise God for what I did have, and that exercise literally changed my life. After I started to praise God every day for what I did and did not have many spiritual things opened up to me.

I also found it best to praise God on your worst days. This is not easy to do but the dynamic will be felt deep inside of you.

It is hard to praise for bad things happening to you, but it is most liberating.

I would suspect you are exactly where you are suppose to be and because you are asking these questions, it is obvious you are seeking change, and I will pray you find it.

Love and peace to you...

Howdy Tsch!

I cant add too much more than the great replys here from the folks!

Only message I will add.

Your family LOVE you!

Thank you all for the insite!
T

I also like to think we chose to play the polarity game of the physical experience to test and challenge ourselves.

I`m trying to find a way off this rock with no luck